When ambition meets PTSD

When ambition meets PTSD

When ambition meets PTSD, we are forced to customize our lives.

When deciding to write this post, I thought about my internal conflict that rage inside; a battle between my hopes and dreams and how impactful PTSD is on my desire to see them through. You see, when ambition meets PTSD, it creates an entirely new set of mentally mind-blowing angst to fight with.

If I were asked to summon this up in one word, what the cornerstone of this entire battle is, it would be uncertainty. I literally have no idea what my future looks like going forward. However, despite this, I am not deterred from trying to figure it out.

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Ok, so I may have days when thinking about the future is a huge deterrent and I may greet a day or two when the battle to find meaning and purpose is too overwhelming. Even so, when met with this internal confrontation, I simply crawl back into bed and hit the rest button; a reboot that, on average takes around twenty-four hours; I’m an old, worn model maybe that why it takes so long.

While I may “shutdown” from time to time, I don’t let this deter me either. So what, if I need a day, I take a day; heck, I’ve even taken two, I just never let the dark own my entire week, month or even year. I do after all, have ambition; albeit, under two tons of mental heavy metal.

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I know that you know the struggle and I also know that you never planned for your life to go sideways like an eighteen wheeler on black ice but it has; so, now what? The question now becomes, what do you have to do to get past it?

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Often times, this question can a tough one to answer. However, I try my best to simplify it. Fundamentally, we can do one of two things. We can, one, do nothing, not an option for an ambitious fella like me. Or, we can; two, fight like hell to regain a life that, admittedly, will never be the one you once knew but nonetheless can still be something great.

When ambition meets PTSD
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It’s for this reason; that life can be something great that both you and I should endeavour to fight for that “something great”. For at the end of the day, when ambition meets PTSD or any other mental health condition for that matter, we still have a choice where to put the energy we have, right? What’s key here, is making sure we customize our journey, so we can set ourselves so we may live again.

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So far, 2020 has exposed us to some of the harshest realities. Chief among them is the reminder that while we think we are the drivers of our own destinies, we’re not. With that said, I think it’s vital that we look at, not only how we lived pre-pandemic; but also, what direction as a species we should take. In other words, we have an opportunity for a reboot; To start anew, both personally and as a cog in the wheel of humanity.

While we can’t deny that this is a tragic time and we need to acknowledge that; we can, at the same time use the stay at home order to ask ourselves; what do we want our new normal to look like? Was the old way working? By which I mean, was it helping everyone?

In this regard, I think this pandemic has blown the doors wide open on a few things; mainly, I think, the holes in our social fabric are biggest in health care; mental health is no exception.

We can debate all day about why we face this health crisis but the fact remains that it’s in desperate need of repair. One thing I am sure of is this; if we allow health care to go back to business as usual, we will see further degradation of an already broken system.

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Not only should we reflect on and make a plan to bolster physical health care, but we should also be thinking about the way mental health care is structured. For example, prior to the invasion of COVID-19, people with mental health conditions were waiting months to see a mental health professional. Not only that, in some cases, but they were also being turned away while experiencing a mental health crisis.

What humanity needs now, more than ever is us. We must provide an opportunity for a reboot

We have to ask ourselves, is this what we really want in our new normal? Some experts are telling us that the next pandemic will be that of mental illness. I can’t help but ask myself, what’s the point of taking such drastic measures to save lives if at the end we lose even more?

Mental illness, the next pandemic.

Indeed, its time, time for us to reflect and take time to think about just how important our social safety nets are. I have concluded that in order to avoid the coming mental health wave, more investment will be needed. If not, the economy that world leaders have fought so hard to keep going will be all for not.

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opportunity for a reboot
opportunity for a reboot

Similarly, if this opportunity for a reboot for us to have a better world goes unfulfilled, if we lack the will to act; we may very well find the new normal, looking worse than the old one. Do we really want to have more people suffer? One thing I am reasonably sure of is that remaining idle will cement the fate of many.

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In the end, we can choose to standby and waste this time or we can plan for a better normal once this unprecedented time is but a spec in our review mirrors. Please, understand, it will take all of us to find the strength to act on what needs to be done; we can save lives if we do more then complain, be aware of what needs to be done, yet wash our hands of it by saying “Meh, what can you do?” What humanity needs now, more than ever is us. People, out of this tragedy, we have an opportunity for a reboot… Let’s take it!

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