Walking Towards The Sirens – As of late I have been in worse mental shape than I have been in years.Tweet
As of late I have been in worse mental shape than I have been in years. While the source of this mental pain remains somewhat unknown to me, I can only guess that it is an accumulation of the s*** storm that has been my life quite some time.
With that said, I am still trying to make every effort to plow my way through the pain, a pain that weighs as heavy as lead. One of my solutions for this morning was to find a beautiful trail and walk it, giving nature my full attention. October is a beautiful time of year in Nova Scotia. The leaves are set ablaze with vibrant reds and beautiful yellows. On this trail, the trees and their brilliant colours lined both sides of the gravel pathway. I was fortunate to lay my eyes on a blue herring on my travels.
While attempting to write the ship, so I can carry on with a good day, off in the distance sirens broke the beauty that surrounded me and sent a chill of fear tingling down my spine. Impossible to remain in the now.
But somehow, I mustered up the strength to walk towards the sirens and carry on with my objective. A feeling that is ever more vindicating, to keep moving forward despite the piercing and dominating wail of the sirens.
You see, in order that you may have some semblance of a normal life, you must keep walking towards the sirens, head held up high and determination in your heart. Are you going to be able to summon the strength every day, every time? Not likely. Is this a sign that you are losing the battle? Absolutely not!
It’s normal with PTSD that in one instance you will be able to walk towards the sirens, while at other times, you will turn and run. Furthermore, it may take you out for the rest of the day. My friends, it’s not the end. Simply take the day off from the noise of the world and relax – you’ve earned it.
Ultimately, we need to keep going. While this is true, it is no secret for those suffering mental illness, that doing so is painful. That’s why downtime is essential; it’s like a reset, so we can recharge and live the life we are able to live. PTSD equals, the days of going full-tilt are gone. But despite this, you are the only one who can further disable yourself. Find New Passions, insert goals and work toward them. A sense of purpose will keep you moving forward when walking towards the sirens.
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