Stability and peace.

All we want in life is stability and peace, a goal worth fighting for.

Sometimes, I like to think of myself as a character in a video game. Why? Because I’ve had my life slide through to the realm of the unknown, only to be respawned to life once more.

Of course, this isn’t reality in its truest sense. I nonetheless find it a good analogy for the ups and downs that are my adult life. I’m willing to guess that your life has periods of chaos…?

So then, let me explain. Mental illness has been my unwanted travel companion for years. While this is certainly true of my adult life, I have a sneaky suspicion that the same is also true of my childhood.

What’s worse, is the impact this unwanted man in my mind has had on my overall well-being. Its done best to sabotage any attempts I have made to live a life of stability and peace.

Life anew, again.

Sadly, my life has had little peace. Between my interior struggles and the exterior world that fuel my traumatic experiences, my life has been re-spawned several times. Hence, the video game analogy. I have fallen, only to rise again.

From relationship failures to multiple leaves from work – including the last leave that has landed me where I am today, diagnosed with PTSD and living on workers’ compensation – I have seen many aspects of my life wither and die. Similarly, I have also had multiple rebirth.

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While it would be inaccurate to blame it solely on my mental-health conditions, it is, nonetheless, the principal villain in my story – responsible for the several reboots I have had to make. Because of it, I have had several disruptions to my stability and peace.

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On the positive side, my comebacks, while temporary, have been triumphant. Filled with long periods of peace and stability. I keep making a comeback because of my unwavering philosophical approach: “Do whatever you have to, to get it done.”

Mental health healing requires action.

For instance, when I took my initial stress leave from work, I transformed my lifestyle to better manage my anxiety disorder. I put down the chips and adopted a healthy eating lifestyle; I got off the couch and hit the pavement running. Doing what I had to do moved me from the land of dysfunction and back to the land of the living.

While I have stumbled and failed many more times in my life, I, like the main character in a video game, was re-spawned into the game of life and just kept plugging away to beat the game. You can too… Just keep moving forward. You will eventually find your peace and stability.

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Jonathan Arenburg

Jonathan Reginald-Nixon Arenburg (Born January 14, 1976) is a Canadian mental health blogger, speaker, and published author. Retired from the fire service and long-term care fields, he has written and self-published an autobiographical account of his life-long battle with anxiety, depression and more recently, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Titled, The Road To Mental Wellness, he wrote it for what he calls “therapeutic release.” He published it in hopes it would help others going through similar mental health conditions. The sales of The Road To Mental Wellness have been steady selling over 300 copies since its release on October 10, 2021(World Mental Health Day). Arenburg has also been involved in a collaborative publication Called Lemonade Stand Volume III, a book featuring 20 authors who bravely tell their stories of PTSD. All authors where from the military and or emergency services. Published by Joshua Rivedal and Kathleen Myers for the i’Mpossible project, a mental health advocacy organization. Jonathan has also appeared on several mental health podcasts including The Depression Files, A New Dawn, and The Above Ground Podcast Arenburg has also consulted with the Government of Nova Scotia and the Minister of Mental Health and Addictions, the Honorable Brian Comer and Candidates for the New Democratic Party of Canada, on improving the mental health care system in Canada. Additionally, Jonathan was recognized in The Nova Scotia Legislature by the Honorable, Chris Palmer, Kings-North MLA, for his Book, The Road To Mental Wellness, his fight to make the mental health care system better. In addition, Chis acknowledged the support he gives to others.

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