Helping others by telling my story. That of Depression, Anxiety and PTSD.
You, Me, And PTSD, its hard on love
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So, you recognized and have finally acknowledged that there’s something going on inside, something that requires you to look deep within yourself.
One of the principal drivers for your decision to seek out answers is the constant disruption your unacknowledged feelings and behaviours are causing in your life. Your reactivity and frequent withdrawal from your every day is a source of continuous pain for not only you but also your partner, your rock that bears the brunt of your outbursts and your fluctuating moods.
One day, you decide that enough is enough. Someday your love is going to walk. This prospect makes your desire to stop hurting the one you love far greater than your fear to confront and deal with your aliments.
Sound familiar? This not so pleasant scenario I know all too well and sadly so does my partner. I would give anything not to have been afflicted with the unbearable pain ofPTSDbut, I am faced with it almost daily. My partner deserves more from me, the better version I can be. She is one of my main motivators for embarking on my journey to wellness and her support and love mean so much to me. Her kind loving nature has been available to me each and every time I fall.
She’s worth the pain and strife that this journey produces and it’s because of her love that I want to be present for her, alleviate her own burdens and reciprocate that love and kindness that makes me stronger. My dream is to one day enjoy our lives together and dammit I am going to achieve just that! I can never sufficiently articulate my gratitude for all that she has done. Thanks, beautiful! It’s difficult not to beat myself up when I know that my turmoil is spilling over into the one who props me up the most.
The nightmares often keep me awake at night and the exhaustion only magnifies the symptoms which impact our relationship. She’s a beautiful lady, a very loving soul. So as tough as it may be to confront my PTSDdemon, it’s made so much easier knowing that our love is worth saving. When I walk down the road of life I want to see her next to me, always. This is enough for me to keep fighting the good fight and utilize all the help and resources I can get my hands on, I want to ensure that my wellness journey and our lives together experience the longevity they both deserve.
Hi, I'm John Arenburg, welcome to The Road To Mental Wellness. Here, I tell my personal story battling Depression, Anxiety and PTSD.
I am a mental health advocate hoping that by telling my story others can see that they are not alone in their own personal battle with mental illness. I seek to inspire others to get the help they need by facing stigma head-on.
a contributing writer to the non-profit organization Sick Not Weak. Also, I am a contributing writer to my local paper, the segment is called Mental Health Talk an advocacy group for all things mental health-related. I have appeared on the Podcast A New Dawn, another advocate in the battle against the stigma. I have guest blogged on several other mental health blogs and have many other projects in the works. I have served in the capacity of a mental health advisor to effect change at the policy level.
Meeting with people one on one, I attempt to give those who are suffering from mental illness a safe place to tell their own stories, real pain hidden away because of the very real fear of what others will think.
Addictions counsellor by trade, I spent 15 years in the volunteer fire service and nearly 20 years working in long term care setting helping those with severe behavioural challenges, mental disabilities and mental illness.
I grew up in small-town Nova Scotia, Canada. Today, I still reside in Nova Scotia with my incredibly supportive and beautiful partner where we share our home with two wonderful children.
Well, that's enough about me, I hope you, not only enjoy The Road To Mental Wellness but I hope it helps lead you down the path of your own mental health journey. To get you started Below is the blog post that started it all.
Birth Of A Healing Journey: Welcome to the road to mental wellness.
For inquiries contact me at my facebook page facebook.com/TRTMW
"Remember, you get to choose where you put your energy.”
- John Arenburg.